Good Morning GOD!

It is a good morning. No fighting in the family this morning. I thank you for that. I just wonder where she is this morning. but that's ok I think I may go down and exercise and do my laundry today cause I have nothing for work, which isn't good.

Oh I really want to thank you so much for being with me as I face Linda. Yes, I know it helps that I don't take everything she says seriously, but that's the way that I am. Well writing the verse on my hand really helps to... Ephesians 4:26. I pray that you would continue to be with me as I go to work today.

I also pray that you would be with me as I apply for that part time job at Shawnee Hills Senior Living as the part time cook. I hope that I will get this job. I sure do need it, oh wait, I really don't need it, but it sure would help with raising money for Swaziland. Thanks.

So the Chase Community Giving thing starts today. So 100 final organizations have a chance to win 1 million dollars! WOW! Of course I voted for Invisible Children, but I think I am gonna look and see if there are any in Kansas or Missouri that I can help too.

So I have been thinking about the movie, To Save A Life, you  know the one I watched last night. It was a great movie. I loved all the points they put in that movie. Now I think it really challenged me to reach the unseen and silent at JCCC. I mean it may be a little bit difficult, but you know I am willing to take that challenge. Can you be with me as I mention it to Erin, from the Intervarsity group at JCCC. I pray that we will be able to impact alot of people this semester on and off campus.

I continue to pray for the people that are in Haiti right now. I pray for a hand of protection. I pray that you would  keep them safe and healthy, even during all of the aftershocks. I definitely pray for all of the organizations out there in Haiti. I pray that they will be able to show the people of Haiti that there is still hope and proctection when they call out your name, and search for your love. I pray for the adopted children of Haiti, I pray for their families, I just want them to know that people are praying for them and their birth parents and that everything will be ok. Send my love and prayers their way. <3

You know, me, Alana, and Kelsey are coming together to hopefully raise enough money to go to Swaziland. We have a lot of ideas and I just hope that they go smoothly. Thanks. Bless our fundraising feats.

I hope brit's first day of second semester went well yesterday. and hope it goes well today.

LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER.

your beloved daughter.

God,

Please be with my family. Especially my brother right now, because he is really causing alot of trouble right now. First of all he wants to be picked up early and i didn't know until mom left, so then when she gets there, being the little boy that he is, he doesn't answer his phone. I try to text him or call letting him know what's going on, but you know and I know it's going to be a really long night. I just wanted to thank you that I am actually going out tonight. Cause I honestly don't think  I can handle being at home tonight with all that just happened.

Please be with all the people out there that think that they can scam people during the time of urgency with the earthquakes and aftershocks in Haiti. I pray that people will be smart and check all sources before donating to such people.

I pray for safe travels for everyone heading home and everyone heading out to the "To Save A Life" Screening out at AMC 30. I pray that this movie will impact the people watching it.

LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER

your beloved daughter.

God,

Today is going to be a really interesting day. I can tell you that much. I mean I am planning on cleaning my room cause honestly, when school starts I want to be able to come in here and study or what not. Oh and definitely paint, now that i have all of my stuff in my room. It's going to be well, hopefully stays organized more that it usually does.

I think I am gonna go apply for that part time cook thing at the old homes place. I hope it will be a new job. God, please let me get this job, I really could use the money.

I am starting to loose hope,  wait a minute I can't be loosing hope right now. Just looking back at all those times you supplied me with all the answers and the money when I needed it. Lord, I just ask for guidance, for control. Control, not so I can control my life, but mainly to control my anger, learn to control my money and such.

Lord, it always seems that when I wake up things never go very well between my mom and I. I really really really want that to change. I wish we could get along. I wish our family could get along. I see the other families at church and wished that our family was like that. I just ask that you would be the relationships we have down here. I pray that they will be able to grow together and that we would learn to control our anger towards each other and put that anger towards something else. Lord, thanks.

I love you. You are always there for me. There when I am in pain, lost all hope, and so forth. I wish my friends like Mintra, could understand the meaning of it all. i wish i had the guts or faith to go and talk to her about you. I wish I really had the guts to invite to church or some of the young adult activities. but i don't, I don't know why, but I don't.

Lord i pray for the people in haiti, and all the organizations sending aid to Haiti. I pray for safe travels and that everything will be able to make it over there. I pray that we as a global community will come together to help and possibly save these people. I honestly wish i could go down there right now and just go and take care of the children. I really pray that the christian organizations down there, like the Hands and Feet Project, will be able to show the people they are around and show them that there is hope, that there is safety when you trust in God. That he will protect them from any harm or further harm and sickness. i just pray for a hand of protection over the country of Haiti and the people going to help.

i pray for the speaker, the Ugandans coming to america, for the Legacy Tour. I pray that they will be able to get everything needed to come over smoothly. i pray that no one will get sick before they come over. I also pray for a hand of protection for them. I know it's going to be a fun semester for them and yet i know it will be a hard one trying to get screenings booked and people to get their contracts in. Lord, I pray for Invisible Children as an organiztion. They are an amazing organization for what they have done so far and what they will continue to do. Especially for those children in Uganda. It's so sad to me that no one is really mentioning it on the news and so forth. but it is amazing that the youth and college students are coming to together to show the world what is going on. This is when I wish people would send money and aid to help this atrocity, but until a natural disaster happens i don't money will be flowing in if it did happen. But that's why alot of littles can make a big difference. I pray that the roadies have gotten to head quarters safely. I pray that you would keep them healthy as they plan screenings and go through training. Send my loves and prayers towards them God.

Lord be with britannie today as she starts her second semester of college. Thanks abunch. send my loves to brit!

LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER

your beloved daughter

God,

There is so much going on in my head right now. I am really wanting to go to Swaziland. I guess you can say that I am really scared and overwhelmed with the reality of how much this trip is going to cost and well, can I say honestly, I don't think I can afford to go. I know that you will provide if you want me to go. I am just scared that you don't want me to go. And I REALLY WANT TO GO.

That's what I am worried that my wants are overpowering what you want from me. Cause Starfield's song, "I Will Go", will always be my prayer to you, and least the one of many.

"To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, to the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within yours hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privelege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing you've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

I will go, I will go

I will go, Lord send me

To the world, to the lost

To the poor and hungry

Take everything I am

I'm clay within yours hands

I will go, I will go, send me

I wanna live for you

Go where you lead me

I wanna follow you (3x)

I will go, I will go

I will go, Lord send me

To the world, to the lost

To the poor and hungry

Take everything I am

I'm clay within yours hands

I will go, I will go, send me

Send Me! (3x)"

Everything in this song is the cry of my heart. I want to be used by you of the best of your abilities. I want to go where you want me to go. I want to do what you want me to do. Be used in situations I didn't think I would benefit from.

Lord, I am praying to you for guidance. Lead me, I will follow. I am listening. Speak to me while I am asleep. Speak to me through my music. Speak to me through my friends and family. Speak to me through Klove or Air1. I am your servant and am listening. I am willing to listen.

I love you. Thanks for all that you have done and all that you will do.

Oh... would you please be with all the people affected by the earthquake in Haiti. I pray that you would continue to protect them from any harm. I pray for all the organizations out there in Haiti, I pray that they will be able to stay strong in you and be able to show others that even in this time of distress, there is still hope in you. I pray for Audio Adrenaline's organization, Hands and Feet Project. I pray that they will continue to show your love. I pray the countries around the world that we will come to aid of Haiti and help them recover. I pray for healing for anyone that is in pain right now. I pray for adopted children, whose birth families came from Haiti. I pray that you will keep them strong and let them know that their families are A-OK! Thanks.

I also pray for all the Ugandans coming to San Diego to go on the Legacy Tour. I pray that everything will go smoothly. I pray that everyone will stay safe and healthy. I pray that no one will get hurt or abducted before the trip. i pray for a hand of protection over each and everyone of these children and jolly. I pray that they will the visas necessary to come over smoothly. I pray for everyone that will come in contact with these amazing people over the next three or four months. I pray that you would soften the hearts of those who don't believe what's happening to be true or real, or even those that believe it's apart of their culture. I pray that we will control our words so we don't make Americans stupid or inconsiderate. I also pray for all the Roadies. i pray that they got to San Diego safely. That they will continue to remember why they are doing this, and not just for making friends and for travels. I pray that they will that in mind as they pursue each screening.

thanks again god.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE be with my family. Our relationships is, honestly, not very great. We all get so angry so fast. i pray that we will all learn to control our anger. i want to be a happy family but i feel like they don't care and just that life would be better for them if i were gone but i know that is not right. they lobe me, but honetly it just doesn't seem like it. please help us to control our angers.

YOU ARE THE LOVER OF MY SOUL.

LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER!

AMEN

your beloved daughter.