God,

There is so much going on in my head right now. I am really wanting to go to Swaziland. I guess you can say that I am really scared and overwhelmed with the reality of how much this trip is going to cost and well, can I say honestly, I don't think I can afford to go. I know that you will provide if you want me to go. I am just scared that you don't want me to go. And I REALLY WANT TO GO.

That's what I am worried that my wants are overpowering what you want from me. Cause Starfield's song, "I Will Go", will always be my prayer to you, and least the one of many.

"To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be

I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, to the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within yours hands
I will go, I will go, send me

Let me not be blind with privelege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing you've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change

I will go, I will go

I will go, Lord send me

To the world, to the lost

To the poor and hungry

Take everything I am

I'm clay within yours hands

I will go, I will go, send me

I wanna live for you

Go where you lead me

I wanna follow you (3x)

I will go, I will go

I will go, Lord send me

To the world, to the lost

To the poor and hungry

Take everything I am

I'm clay within yours hands

I will go, I will go, send me

Send Me! (3x)"

Everything in this song is the cry of my heart. I want to be used by you of the best of your abilities. I want to go where you want me to go. I want to do what you want me to do. Be used in situations I didn't think I would benefit from.

Lord, I am praying to you for guidance. Lead me, I will follow. I am listening. Speak to me while I am asleep. Speak to me through my music. Speak to me through my friends and family. Speak to me through Klove or Air1. I am your servant and am listening. I am willing to listen.

I love you. Thanks for all that you have done and all that you will do.

Oh... would you please be with all the people affected by the earthquake in Haiti. I pray that you would continue to protect them from any harm. I pray for all the organizations out there in Haiti, I pray that they will be able to stay strong in you and be able to show others that even in this time of distress, there is still hope in you. I pray for Audio Adrenaline's organization, Hands and Feet Project. I pray that they will continue to show your love. I pray the countries around the world that we will come to aid of Haiti and help them recover. I pray for healing for anyone that is in pain right now. I pray for adopted children, whose birth families came from Haiti. I pray that you will keep them strong and let them know that their families are A-OK! Thanks.

I also pray for all the Ugandans coming to San Diego to go on the Legacy Tour. I pray that everything will go smoothly. I pray that everyone will stay safe and healthy. I pray that no one will get hurt or abducted before the trip. i pray for a hand of protection over each and everyone of these children and jolly. I pray that they will the visas necessary to come over smoothly. I pray for everyone that will come in contact with these amazing people over the next three or four months. I pray that you would soften the hearts of those who don't believe what's happening to be true or real, or even those that believe it's apart of their culture. I pray that we will control our words so we don't make Americans stupid or inconsiderate. I also pray for all the Roadies. i pray that they got to San Diego safely. That they will continue to remember why they are doing this, and not just for making friends and for travels. I pray that they will that in mind as they pursue each screening.

thanks again god.

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE be with my family. Our relationships is, honestly, not very great. We all get so angry so fast. i pray that we will all learn to control our anger. i want to be a happy family but i feel like they don't care and just that life would be better for them if i were gone but i know that is not right. they lobe me, but honetly it just doesn't seem like it. please help us to control our angers.

YOU ARE THE LOVER OF MY SOUL.

LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER!

AMEN

your beloved daughter.