Oh Lord, you are so great, mighty and powerful God. There is nothing, no person, no idol on this earth that deserves the praises that I sing and say. You are it. You are my awesome father, friend, mentor, and guider. Oh you are my shepherd, that is ready to guide me from the evil and ready to find me no matter what situation I am in, and I praise you for that God. For you are the only one that would sacrifice that time just for me.
I am, I feel that I am just drifting away God. I really don't want to. I missing encountering you a way, in a way that made me feel so alive. I miss that time God. I feel that I am going to need to watch the IHOPU Awakening Services this week. I wish I could be there. I wish I could. I know that I don't have to be there for me to encounter you, cause I have experienced your joy here in this bedroom, and even in my kitchen. Or even at my work. Oh lord, please guide me, reach out to me. I pray Lord that I may start a new. That I may continue to read your word because I desire to, and I want to. Oh for you are so great and when I read your word, it makes me know you more. And it makes me so proud to be a child of you. Oh lord, I just pray that I be addicted to your word. Oh you are so great!
I love you so much God! You are great, and I pray that you would just start to work in the students going to JCCC and I pray that you would just start to release your spirit on them. Release that spirit of prayer, spirit of evangelical. Oh for you are so great, and I feel that you will be doing something great this semester and I pray that I would be able to be apart of it. Lord I pray, as we start to become hungry for prayer that you would give all of us great boldness Lord. Oh give us great boldness, just to even make it a goal to pray for maybe one stranger, one person a day. Yes, lord give us great boldness. And lord I pray that you would give us all divine appointments God. Oh yes, I pray that as we have boldness and that we are close to your heart and your will, oh lord. You are so great I pray that as we see what you see, that we would just reach out to everyone. Oh you are so great. I pray that everyone on this campus will know how great you are. I pray that you would bless this campus God. Oh send a great outpouring of your spirit.
Your beloved daughter.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Monday, May 31, 2010
Hey God,
How life up there? Today is a very special day, especially to me. It's memorial day, a day of remembering all of our Military personnel. The reason this day is very special to my heart is because my dad was in the Marine Corps. I do pray for all of the families of the Military. I pray that if they lost a loved one, I pray for a hand of peace over their lives lord. I do pray that you would be with all of the military personnel. I just pray that you would give them direction and strength in their lives. Especially today I pray that you would give them your wonder-ous joy in their lives God. I pray that you would continue to pour out your love on them and their families.
Oh Lord, I am sad that Molly is leaving. Although I know that you have a great future in plan. I pray that she would continue to search you and grow closer to you. I pray that you would send her someone to her that would purchase her home. I pray that you would bless her marriage. I pray that you would be with her as she enters the new church and hangs out and leads their students to following the lord closer and in a way deeper than before.
I pray for Jake and Jenni, and they are about to take a new step in their lives in the next following week. I pray that you would bless their lives and their marriage lord. They are so happy together and we know that couldn't have happened with out you. I pray that you be with them as they move to Florida. I will miss them as well. But I know especially Jake will have alot of fun. I just pray that you would be with Jake as he enters the new church and that the students will be prepared to learn and take the relationship with You closer and in a way deeper than they have ever experienced. I pray that you would ease their travels to their new home.
Oh Lord I pray for the Invisible Children HR Department. As time gets closer for them to figure out who is or isn't going to be a Roadie, I don't know but I could imagine it being very difficult. So I pray that you give them peace and strength to make it through the application process.
Well It's time to leave for Worlds of Fun! Talk to you later. :)
Your Beloved Daughter.
How life up there? Today is a very special day, especially to me. It's memorial day, a day of remembering all of our Military personnel. The reason this day is very special to my heart is because my dad was in the Marine Corps. I do pray for all of the families of the Military. I pray that if they lost a loved one, I pray for a hand of peace over their lives lord. I do pray that you would be with all of the military personnel. I just pray that you would give them direction and strength in their lives. Especially today I pray that you would give them your wonder-ous joy in their lives God. I pray that you would continue to pour out your love on them and their families.
Oh Lord, I am sad that Molly is leaving. Although I know that you have a great future in plan. I pray that she would continue to search you and grow closer to you. I pray that you would send her someone to her that would purchase her home. I pray that you would bless her marriage. I pray that you would be with her as she enters the new church and hangs out and leads their students to following the lord closer and in a way deeper than before.
I pray for Jake and Jenni, and they are about to take a new step in their lives in the next following week. I pray that you would bless their lives and their marriage lord. They are so happy together and we know that couldn't have happened with out you. I pray that you be with them as they move to Florida. I will miss them as well. But I know especially Jake will have alot of fun. I just pray that you would be with Jake as he enters the new church and that the students will be prepared to learn and take the relationship with You closer and in a way deeper than they have ever experienced. I pray that you would ease their travels to their new home.
Oh Lord I pray for the Invisible Children HR Department. As time gets closer for them to figure out who is or isn't going to be a Roadie, I don't know but I could imagine it being very difficult. So I pray that you give them peace and strength to make it through the application process.
Well It's time to leave for Worlds of Fun! Talk to you later. :)
Your Beloved Daughter.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
May 6, 2010 (Thursday)
Dear God,I just wanted to thank you so much for the great friends you have given me while I am at JCCC. I am really happy for the Bible study I found.
I remember the first time I ran into InterVarsity was when they had a the Moon Bounce. I think that was when I ran into Tim, and then Terrissa again since high school. I don't I ever went to bible study until half way through the semester.
I started going to the Women's Bible Study, which I enjoyed going to.
I think it was this time, when I really started reading my Bible because I wanted to. I started asking questions on a whole different level than I did before.
I also took the steps trying out different churches like the International House of Prayer. I heard about it all the time, and I finally took the steps to go there. I went, I was weirded out and scared at first but then, I really started enjoying how they prayed and that they would pray 24/7 for 10 years which it totally awesome!
So. God I just wanted to thank you for all my friends and the different ministries I am apart of.
Your Beloved Daughter.
Monday, April 26, 2010
April 26, 2010 (Monday)
AHHHH!!!!
God, I have more than one question for you, but I have one for you right now.
Why do you make me so paranoid?
I ask this because I am always thinking people are out to get me. Like I just got an email from my Spanish teacher, and she was talking about how she couldn't come in "early" so I couldn't finish my "artwork" or finish my test. Obviously I hadn't taken that test, yet, my plan was to go to school tomorrow and do it. But I mean now obviously I can't now. But I thought she was getting mad that I skipped all of last week and is mad that I doodle in her class. Teachers need to know that I learn best when I am listening and doodling at the same time. So I was thinking about dropping that class, just because I thought she was giving me an attitude. Of course she wasn't, but really if you were in my position and got that email, you may not have gone to that big of an extreme, but come on I bet it would tick you off.
Well, I was extremely bored today, my plan was to go to IHOP at like 1p after I ate lunch, but, LOL, I didn't get there until like 3p. Yeah, I got distracted. It was still really good because I think that I really got to talking to you. Not as much though as I normally do. But it made me think. You have placed this idea of feeding the homeless and having conversations with them, and I haven't done it yet. It kind of makes me sad. but I really hoping that May 8, I'll be doing that with some of my friends. *fingers crossed*
Well I am gonna look around, I'll talk to you later, I just needed to vent and didn't have my journal with me.
Your Beloved Daughter.
God, I have more than one question for you, but I have one for you right now.
Why do you make me so paranoid?
I ask this because I am always thinking people are out to get me. Like I just got an email from my Spanish teacher, and she was talking about how she couldn't come in "early" so I couldn't finish my "artwork" or finish my test. Obviously I hadn't taken that test, yet, my plan was to go to school tomorrow and do it. But I mean now obviously I can't now. But I thought she was getting mad that I skipped all of last week and is mad that I doodle in her class. Teachers need to know that I learn best when I am listening and doodling at the same time. So I was thinking about dropping that class, just because I thought she was giving me an attitude. Of course she wasn't, but really if you were in my position and got that email, you may not have gone to that big of an extreme, but come on I bet it would tick you off.
Well, I was extremely bored today, my plan was to go to IHOP at like 1p after I ate lunch, but, LOL, I didn't get there until like 3p. Yeah, I got distracted. It was still really good because I think that I really got to talking to you. Not as much though as I normally do. But it made me think. You have placed this idea of feeding the homeless and having conversations with them, and I haven't done it yet. It kind of makes me sad. but I really hoping that May 8, I'll be doing that with some of my friends. *fingers crossed*
Well I am gonna look around, I'll talk to you later, I just needed to vent and didn't have my journal with me.
Your Beloved Daughter.
Monday, April 12, 2010
April 12, 2010 (Monday)
Hey God,
Well, I bet your day was great and bad at the same. Seeing some of your children coming back to you, or even finding you for the first time. I know it must be tough to see all the pain and hurt your children cause for your other children. Seeing the sins your children go through before it even happens, but yet, you are a God that see things for the better rather than the worse, and I know I should. I know even though we sin you still look at us with an open and honest heart and also knows that we are going to make it through... eventually.
I know I should totally look at things that way as well. But I know that you want me to chase after my heart, but yet, I get confused about the times when following my heart and your will goes against what my parents believe. And it does say quite frequently to listen to our parents. But you are my heavenly father and I believe what you want for me is different from my earthly father and mother.
I know that I am living at home, but really. It's almost ridiculous to me that I have to pay rent. And that it goes up every 3 months. It's ridiculous. I know that it's silly of me to change my degree so fast but it was likely to happen, some people do it more often than i do.
It just wasn't cool. I really didn't appreciate my earthly dad sending me texts like: ''I hope your finding a place to live." "I should say that your attitude towards this family is getting close to the breaking point." Like seriously! Come on! I just don't get it. I really don't. I know that as soon as I show them my grades they aren't going to be happy, and you know what I know they are going to blame it on Invisible Children. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I can't move out. I just can't afford to. i neeed to save up for my Invisible Children Roadie position. I just really don't understand. I totally would have moved out along time ago if I totally could.
You remember that one time God when my earthly mother threw my favorite mug at me? Well That last text message I got from my dad tonight almost felt like a symbolic mug thrown at my heart which shattered into a million pieces. I just can't take the mental abuse from the family. I can't stand it! What am I suppose to do to make them happen. Join the peace corps? That may be one of my last hopes. I just don't know what else to do. Like I know he isn't going to pay for college anymore, and I need a way to pay for college. I guess I better make daddy proud by joining the marines.... blech. Yes, I know without it I wouldn't be alive, but without it, I wouldn't be here to face what i am facing right now. All this ... pardon my language... shit in my life. I know their life would be sooo much better without me. Then they would just have time to talk about their favorite son, and how he's doing great in school, sports, choir, and how he wants to be an engineer. Like ridonculous. .Oh did I forget to mention that he is going to New York City for choir. My parents must be so proud of him. They should just frame his fuckin' picture in a gold plated frame. You look around the house as soon as my brother graduates, I bet you that they will have pictures of him around the house. My senior pics still aren't up. FUCK MY LIFE!
Sorry God. I just had to get that out. And you know and I know that I don't have the guts to cut myself, so while I was driving today I was thinking. I do draw some pretty graphic stuff, well I was thinking since I can't cut myself, why don't I just in like a paintint. Paint a picture of my arm and them cut out slivers of my ''skin'', and then paint on another canvas, blood red. Then tape or glue it behind it so then it looks like I am bleeding.
What would it take to make me happy right now. Right now... not a whole lot. Just that my parents would understand that I don't have the money to pay them right now. That what I am doing for Invisible Children is because I want to, and I love to. It isn't because it's a fad. Invisible Children, may be a fad to some people, but it's a life style for me. I love it. I truely enjoy it. I love children and hate seeing them being used like that. Alhough, I am very much thinking about stopping my enjoyment with working with children to go to another church. I just can't stand it.
I just can't.
Oh God, I pray that you would please give me strength. But more importantly, Lord, give me the ability to forgive my family, especially my dad. Give me to patience to go through whatever is going through their minds. Lord i pray for guidance. I am wanting to listen to what you have for me. I love you so much.
I praise you for amazing friends, and an amazing family at church, at JCCC, and my future family with Invisible Children. Lord I praise you for allowing me to see another day. Even if I honestly think in my heart that I don't want to see another day or don't deserve to live another day. These thoughts roll through my head like nothing, and yet with your help and amazing love, I can say that I don't have the strength or some say the weakness to do those things. I pray that you would continue to work in my life. Lord, I honestly don't know how much longer I can take of this, but I know that with you I can do all things.
"Jesus, you have me completely
every breath that I breathe
I am absolutely in love
Jesus, I am yours forever
all of my surrender
I am absolutely in love with you."
Lord, that is my prayer. I also pray that I will be able to take James 1.... I believe... to heart. I think that's where it is, where it says that I should take delight in my trials. Lord I pray that you would give me JOY! yes Lord, JOY! Give me more of it! I pray that I will wake up tomorrow, thinking I am so happy and ready to take this family issue by the horns and just push it to the side.
Lord I do pray for my family. I pray that you would give them guidance. Let them know Lord that what they are doing is hurting me emotionally, but more importantly... this is so hard to say, but I FORGIVE THEM. Do I feel better, no not really, but I know it's for the best. Lord I know that is what you would have done, if you were in my position. Continue to love them, even when you are in pain. You even showed us that love, when you died for us on the cross.
Lord I love you so much.... i'll probably talk to you in my journal sometime soon.
Your beloved daughter.
Laura Clark
Well, I bet your day was great and bad at the same. Seeing some of your children coming back to you, or even finding you for the first time. I know it must be tough to see all the pain and hurt your children cause for your other children. Seeing the sins your children go through before it even happens, but yet, you are a God that see things for the better rather than the worse, and I know I should. I know even though we sin you still look at us with an open and honest heart and also knows that we are going to make it through... eventually.
I know I should totally look at things that way as well. But I know that you want me to chase after my heart, but yet, I get confused about the times when following my heart and your will goes against what my parents believe. And it does say quite frequently to listen to our parents. But you are my heavenly father and I believe what you want for me is different from my earthly father and mother.
I know that I am living at home, but really. It's almost ridiculous to me that I have to pay rent. And that it goes up every 3 months. It's ridiculous. I know that it's silly of me to change my degree so fast but it was likely to happen, some people do it more often than i do.
It just wasn't cool. I really didn't appreciate my earthly dad sending me texts like: ''I hope your finding a place to live." "I should say that your attitude towards this family is getting close to the breaking point." Like seriously! Come on! I just don't get it. I really don't. I know that as soon as I show them my grades they aren't going to be happy, and you know what I know they are going to blame it on Invisible Children. I just don't know what to do anymore.
I can't move out. I just can't afford to. i neeed to save up for my Invisible Children Roadie position. I just really don't understand. I totally would have moved out along time ago if I totally could.
You remember that one time God when my earthly mother threw my favorite mug at me? Well That last text message I got from my dad tonight almost felt like a symbolic mug thrown at my heart which shattered into a million pieces. I just can't take the mental abuse from the family. I can't stand it! What am I suppose to do to make them happen. Join the peace corps? That may be one of my last hopes. I just don't know what else to do. Like I know he isn't going to pay for college anymore, and I need a way to pay for college. I guess I better make daddy proud by joining the marines.... blech. Yes, I know without it I wouldn't be alive, but without it, I wouldn't be here to face what i am facing right now. All this ... pardon my language... shit in my life. I know their life would be sooo much better without me. Then they would just have time to talk about their favorite son, and how he's doing great in school, sports, choir, and how he wants to be an engineer. Like ridonculous. .Oh did I forget to mention that he is going to New York City for choir. My parents must be so proud of him. They should just frame his fuckin' picture in a gold plated frame. You look around the house as soon as my brother graduates, I bet you that they will have pictures of him around the house. My senior pics still aren't up. FUCK MY LIFE!
Sorry God. I just had to get that out. And you know and I know that I don't have the guts to cut myself, so while I was driving today I was thinking. I do draw some pretty graphic stuff, well I was thinking since I can't cut myself, why don't I just in like a paintint. Paint a picture of my arm and them cut out slivers of my ''skin'', and then paint on another canvas, blood red. Then tape or glue it behind it so then it looks like I am bleeding.
What would it take to make me happy right now. Right now... not a whole lot. Just that my parents would understand that I don't have the money to pay them right now. That what I am doing for Invisible Children is because I want to, and I love to. It isn't because it's a fad. Invisible Children, may be a fad to some people, but it's a life style for me. I love it. I truely enjoy it. I love children and hate seeing them being used like that. Alhough, I am very much thinking about stopping my enjoyment with working with children to go to another church. I just can't stand it.
I just can't.
Oh God, I pray that you would please give me strength. But more importantly, Lord, give me the ability to forgive my family, especially my dad. Give me to patience to go through whatever is going through their minds. Lord i pray for guidance. I am wanting to listen to what you have for me. I love you so much.
I praise you for amazing friends, and an amazing family at church, at JCCC, and my future family with Invisible Children. Lord I praise you for allowing me to see another day. Even if I honestly think in my heart that I don't want to see another day or don't deserve to live another day. These thoughts roll through my head like nothing, and yet with your help and amazing love, I can say that I don't have the strength or some say the weakness to do those things. I pray that you would continue to work in my life. Lord, I honestly don't know how much longer I can take of this, but I know that with you I can do all things.
"Jesus, you have me completely
every breath that I breathe
I am absolutely in love
Jesus, I am yours forever
all of my surrender
I am absolutely in love with you."
Lord, that is my prayer. I also pray that I will be able to take James 1.... I believe... to heart. I think that's where it is, where it says that I should take delight in my trials. Lord I pray that you would give me JOY! yes Lord, JOY! Give me more of it! I pray that I will wake up tomorrow, thinking I am so happy and ready to take this family issue by the horns and just push it to the side.
Lord I do pray for my family. I pray that you would give them guidance. Let them know Lord that what they are doing is hurting me emotionally, but more importantly... this is so hard to say, but I FORGIVE THEM. Do I feel better, no not really, but I know it's for the best. Lord I know that is what you would have done, if you were in my position. Continue to love them, even when you are in pain. You even showed us that love, when you died for us on the cross.
Lord I love you so much.... i'll probably talk to you in my journal sometime soon.
Your beloved daughter.
Laura Clark
Monday, March 29, 2010
March 29, 2010 (Monday)
Hey God,
You know You are really amazing. Today was such a beautiful day. It was amazing to do devotions and converse with you today outside in Your splendor and glory.
Lord, You are doing so much great things with the International House of Prayer. I pray that you would continue to bless them. I pray that you would be with Laura Hackett right now as she is leading Your people across the country and world praising you. I pray that you would continue to bless her Lord. Continue to give her words to speak and to sing. I pray that you would fill every one in the Global Prayer Room right now. I pray that you give them joy, I pray that you would just fill those with love who haven't felt Your love before. I just pray that you would use these Awakening Services to Your blessing God. I pray that as these services happen You will give people such great boldness and take it back to their churches and school campuses around the country and world. I pray that You would just go with each and everyone and be with every step that they take God. I pray that you would just fill their hearts with your love God. I just pray that they will be such great examples of your love God. I pray that they will be have a testimony of your great power.
Lord, I pray for all of the people around the world they don't own shoes. I praise you for their such faith in you. Such faith that they are willing to go barefoot for you, not like they can help it, but Lord, I bet they aren't complaining. I know I would be complaining all the time if I didn't have shoes, or couldn't afford one pair of shoes. I praise you for the organizations such as TOMS that provide shoes for the children. I pray that you would bless The day without shoes. i pray that i and many others will spread the awareness and importance of shoes. Lord, i pray that they will continue to trust in you. I pray that you would bless them with shoes and shoes for their families.
Lord, I continue to pray for Haiti. i pray that you would just heal people if they are still in pain. I continue to pray for those organizations that are still working on the earthquake situation, like Charity:water. Lord you are amazing. I ask that you would bless these organization with workers, supplies, and money to continue to work in Haiti, and not leave these people behind and forget about them.
I pray for the mission trip to Swaziland. I pray that you would be with the hearts of all the people going. I pray that you reach into their souls and prepare them for what they are going to see. I pray that they will be able to trust you.I pray that we would be able to reach out goal.
Lord, I pray for all the people at the church that are dealing with sugerys. I pray that you give them fast healing. I pray that they will continue to look to you even when things start to look worse. Lord be with their families. Help them to learn to trust that you have everything under control.
Love you lots.
Your Beloved Daughter,
Laura Ann Clark
You know You are really amazing. Today was such a beautiful day. It was amazing to do devotions and converse with you today outside in Your splendor and glory.
Lord, You are doing so much great things with the International House of Prayer. I pray that you would continue to bless them. I pray that you would be with Laura Hackett right now as she is leading Your people across the country and world praising you. I pray that you would continue to bless her Lord. Continue to give her words to speak and to sing. I pray that you would fill every one in the Global Prayer Room right now. I pray that you give them joy, I pray that you would just fill those with love who haven't felt Your love before. I just pray that you would use these Awakening Services to Your blessing God. I pray that as these services happen You will give people such great boldness and take it back to their churches and school campuses around the country and world. I pray that You would just go with each and everyone and be with every step that they take God. I pray that you would just fill their hearts with your love God. I just pray that they will be such great examples of your love God. I pray that they will be have a testimony of your great power.
Lord, I pray for all of the people around the world they don't own shoes. I praise you for their such faith in you. Such faith that they are willing to go barefoot for you, not like they can help it, but Lord, I bet they aren't complaining. I know I would be complaining all the time if I didn't have shoes, or couldn't afford one pair of shoes. I praise you for the organizations such as TOMS that provide shoes for the children. I pray that you would bless The day without shoes. i pray that i and many others will spread the awareness and importance of shoes. Lord, i pray that they will continue to trust in you. I pray that you would bless them with shoes and shoes for their families.
Lord, I continue to pray for Haiti. i pray that you would just heal people if they are still in pain. I continue to pray for those organizations that are still working on the earthquake situation, like Charity:water. Lord you are amazing. I ask that you would bless these organization with workers, supplies, and money to continue to work in Haiti, and not leave these people behind and forget about them.
I pray for the mission trip to Swaziland. I pray that you would be with the hearts of all the people going. I pray that you reach into their souls and prepare them for what they are going to see. I pray that they will be able to trust you.I pray that we would be able to reach out goal.
Lord, I pray for all the people at the church that are dealing with sugerys. I pray that you give them fast healing. I pray that they will continue to look to you even when things start to look worse. Lord be with their families. Help them to learn to trust that you have everything under control.
Love you lots.
Your Beloved Daughter,
Laura Ann Clark
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Letter From God
So, basically this is a letter that I got from God at IHOP. The night before I was crying and was sad for no reason, so I decided to make it to IHOP to purposely sit there and be open to what had to say.
Basically here are the few lines before the letter from God in my journal, and I'll bold the letter.
Lord I pray that you would be with me as I prep my application until it's ready. I pray that you would be with me and as I make sure this is what you want me to do.
[god you know every time I say that, I almost feel like you're telling me "duh, Laura, of course I want you to do it. Why would I give you this passion and then not let you use it. I gave you this passion for a reason. So stop worrying about being able to raise money for it, cause you know that if you trust in ME then I WILL provide for you. Laura trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Don't worry. I want you to use the love and passion I have given you. I want you to be a loving testimony to everyone you come in contact with. I want you to spread your love and passion for these children to the schools and churches you go to. Don't worry I will go ahead of you. Laura trust me. Laura don't worry. Laura trust me. Now go finish that application and don't push it off. This part is all you. I'll handle the rest. Laura I love you. You are my beautiful daughter whom I am very well pleased of. I am so proud of everything you have done in your life. The good and the bad. Yes even the bad. Laura go, go to Johnson County Community College and spread My love. Love from every corner of your campus. Laura get out of that comfort zone. Laura I believe in you and that you can and will do a lot of great things. Laura. Trust in me. Trust me. I love you. I love you. Give me every part of you. Laura trust me.]
Yeah basically I couldn't write any more in my journal that night with out crying. Cause Hewas is right. I need to trust Him. Why else would He have given me the passion if I were just going to not use it.
Basically here are the few lines before the letter from God in my journal, and I'll bold the letter.
Lord I pray that you would be with me as I prep my application until it's ready. I pray that you would be with me and as I make sure this is what you want me to do.
[god you know every time I say that, I almost feel like you're telling me "duh, Laura, of course I want you to do it. Why would I give you this passion and then not let you use it. I gave you this passion for a reason. So stop worrying about being able to raise money for it, cause you know that if you trust in ME then I WILL provide for you. Laura trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Trust me. Don't worry. I want you to use the love and passion I have given you. I want you to be a loving testimony to everyone you come in contact with. I want you to spread your love and passion for these children to the schools and churches you go to. Don't worry I will go ahead of you. Laura trust me. Laura don't worry. Laura trust me. Now go finish that application and don't push it off. This part is all you. I'll handle the rest. Laura I love you. You are my beautiful daughter whom I am very well pleased of. I am so proud of everything you have done in your life. The good and the bad. Yes even the bad. Laura go, go to Johnson County Community College and spread My love. Love from every corner of your campus. Laura get out of that comfort zone. Laura I believe in you and that you can and will do a lot of great things. Laura. Trust in me. Trust me. I love you. I love you. Give me every part of you. Laura trust me.]
Yeah basically I couldn't write any more in my journal that night with out crying. Cause He
Friday, January 15, 2010
Good Morning GOD!
It is a good morning. No fighting in the family this morning. I thank you for that. I just wonder where she is this morning. but that's ok I think I may go down and exercise and do my laundry today cause I have nothing for work, which isn't good.
Oh I really want to thank you so much for being with me as I face Linda. Yes, I know it helps that I don't take everything she says seriously, but that's the way that I am. Well writing the verse on my hand really helps to... Ephesians 4:26. I pray that you would continue to be with me as I go to work today.
I also pray that you would be with me as I apply for that part time job at Shawnee Hills Senior Living as the part time cook. I hope that I will get this job. I sure do need it, oh wait, I really don't need it, but it sure would help with raising money for Swaziland. Thanks.
So the Chase Community Giving thing starts today. So 100 final organizations have a chance to win 1 million dollars! WOW! Of course I voted for Invisible Children, but I think I am gonna look and see if there are any in Kansas or Missouri that I can help too.
So I have been thinking about the movie, To Save A Life, you know the one I watched last night. It was a great movie. I loved all the points they put in that movie. Now I think it really challenged me to reach the unseen and silent at JCCC. I mean it may be a little bit difficult, but you know I am willing to take that challenge. Can you be with me as I mention it to Erin, from the Intervarsity group at JCCC. I pray that we will be able to impact alot of people this semester on and off campus.
I continue to pray for the people that are in Haiti right now. I pray for a hand of protection. I pray that you would keep them safe and healthy, even during all of the aftershocks. I definitely pray for all of the organizations out there in Haiti. I pray that they will be able to show the people of Haiti that there is still hope and proctection when they call out your name, and search for your love. I pray for the adopted children of Haiti, I pray for their families, I just want them to know that people are praying for them and their birth parents and that everything will be ok. Send my love and prayers their way. <3
You know, me, Alana, and Kelsey are coming together to hopefully raise enough money to go to Swaziland. We have a lot of ideas and I just hope that they go smoothly. Thanks. Bless our fundraising feats.
I hope brit's first day of second semester went well yesterday. and hope it goes well today.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER.
your beloved daughter.
It is a good morning. No fighting in the family this morning. I thank you for that. I just wonder where she is this morning. but that's ok I think I may go down and exercise and do my laundry today cause I have nothing for work, which isn't good.
Oh I really want to thank you so much for being with me as I face Linda. Yes, I know it helps that I don't take everything she says seriously, but that's the way that I am. Well writing the verse on my hand really helps to... Ephesians 4:26. I pray that you would continue to be with me as I go to work today.
I also pray that you would be with me as I apply for that part time job at Shawnee Hills Senior Living as the part time cook. I hope that I will get this job. I sure do need it, oh wait, I really don't need it, but it sure would help with raising money for Swaziland. Thanks.
So the Chase Community Giving thing starts today. So 100 final organizations have a chance to win 1 million dollars! WOW! Of course I voted for Invisible Children, but I think I am gonna look and see if there are any in Kansas or Missouri that I can help too.
So I have been thinking about the movie, To Save A Life, you know the one I watched last night. It was a great movie. I loved all the points they put in that movie. Now I think it really challenged me to reach the unseen and silent at JCCC. I mean it may be a little bit difficult, but you know I am willing to take that challenge. Can you be with me as I mention it to Erin, from the Intervarsity group at JCCC. I pray that we will be able to impact alot of people this semester on and off campus.
I continue to pray for the people that are in Haiti right now. I pray for a hand of protection. I pray that you would keep them safe and healthy, even during all of the aftershocks. I definitely pray for all of the organizations out there in Haiti. I pray that they will be able to show the people of Haiti that there is still hope and proctection when they call out your name, and search for your love. I pray for the adopted children of Haiti, I pray for their families, I just want them to know that people are praying for them and their birth parents and that everything will be ok. Send my love and prayers their way. <3
You know, me, Alana, and Kelsey are coming together to hopefully raise enough money to go to Swaziland. We have a lot of ideas and I just hope that they go smoothly. Thanks. Bless our fundraising feats.
I hope brit's first day of second semester went well yesterday. and hope it goes well today.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER.
your beloved daughter.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
God,
Please be with my family. Especially my brother right now, because he is really causing alot of trouble right now. First of all he wants to be picked up early and i didn't know until mom left, so then when she gets there, being the little boy that he is, he doesn't answer his phone. I try to text him or call letting him know what's going on, but you know and I know it's going to be a really long night. I just wanted to thank you that I am actually going out tonight. Cause I honestly don't think I can handle being at home tonight with all that just happened.
Please be with all the people out there that think that they can scam people during the time of urgency with the earthquakes and aftershocks in Haiti. I pray that people will be smart and check all sources before donating to such people.
I pray for safe travels for everyone heading home and everyone heading out to the "To Save A Life" Screening out at AMC 30. I pray that this movie will impact the people watching it.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER
your beloved daughter.
Please be with my family. Especially my brother right now, because he is really causing alot of trouble right now. First of all he wants to be picked up early and i didn't know until mom left, so then when she gets there, being the little boy that he is, he doesn't answer his phone. I try to text him or call letting him know what's going on, but you know and I know it's going to be a really long night. I just wanted to thank you that I am actually going out tonight. Cause I honestly don't think I can handle being at home tonight with all that just happened.
Please be with all the people out there that think that they can scam people during the time of urgency with the earthquakes and aftershocks in Haiti. I pray that people will be smart and check all sources before donating to such people.
I pray for safe travels for everyone heading home and everyone heading out to the "To Save A Life" Screening out at AMC 30. I pray that this movie will impact the people watching it.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER
your beloved daughter.
God,
Today is going to be a really interesting day. I can tell you that much. I mean I am planning on cleaning my room cause honestly, when school starts I want to be able to come in here and study or what not. Oh and definitely paint, now that i have all of my stuff in my room. It's going to be well, hopefully stays organized more that it usually does.
I think I am gonna go apply for that part time cook thing at the old homes place. I hope it will be a new job. God, please let me get this job, I really could use the money.
I am starting to loose hope, wait a minute I can't be loosing hope right now. Just looking back at all those times you supplied me with all the answers and the money when I needed it. Lord, I just ask for guidance, for control. Control, not so I can control my life, but mainly to control my anger, learn to control my money and such.
Lord, it always seems that when I wake up things never go very well between my mom and I. I really really really want that to change. I wish we could get along. I wish our family could get along. I see the other families at church and wished that our family was like that. I just ask that you would be the relationships we have down here. I pray that they will be able to grow together and that we would learn to control our anger towards each other and put that anger towards something else. Lord, thanks.
I love you. You are always there for me. There when I am in pain, lost all hope, and so forth. I wish my friends like Mintra, could understand the meaning of it all. i wish i had the guts or faith to go and talk to her about you. I wish I really had the guts to invite to church or some of the young adult activities. but i don't, I don't know why, but I don't.
Lord i pray for the people in haiti, and all the organizations sending aid to Haiti. I pray for safe travels and that everything will be able to make it over there. I pray that we as a global community will come together to help and possibly save these people. I honestly wish i could go down there right now and just go and take care of the children. I really pray that the christian organizations down there, like the Hands and Feet Project, will be able to show the people they are around and show them that there is hope, that there is safety when you trust in God. That he will protect them from any harm or further harm and sickness. i just pray for a hand of protection over the country of Haiti and the people going to help.
i pray for the speaker, the Ugandans coming to america, for the Legacy Tour. I pray that they will be able to get everything needed to come over smoothly. i pray that no one will get sick before they come over. I also pray for a hand of protection for them. I know it's going to be a fun semester for them and yet i know it will be a hard one trying to get screenings booked and people to get their contracts in. Lord, I pray for Invisible Children as an organiztion. They are an amazing organization for what they have done so far and what they will continue to do. Especially for those children in Uganda. It's so sad to me that no one is really mentioning it on the news and so forth. but it is amazing that the youth and college students are coming to together to show the world what is going on. This is when I wish people would send money and aid to help this atrocity, but until a natural disaster happens i don't money will be flowing in if it did happen. But that's why alot of littles can make a big difference. I pray that the roadies have gotten to head quarters safely. I pray that you would keep them healthy as they plan screenings and go through training. Send my loves and prayers towards them God.
Lord be with britannie today as she starts her second semester of college. Thanks abunch. send my loves to brit!
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER
your beloved daughter
Today is going to be a really interesting day. I can tell you that much. I mean I am planning on cleaning my room cause honestly, when school starts I want to be able to come in here and study or what not. Oh and definitely paint, now that i have all of my stuff in my room. It's going to be well, hopefully stays organized more that it usually does.
I think I am gonna go apply for that part time cook thing at the old homes place. I hope it will be a new job. God, please let me get this job, I really could use the money.
I am starting to loose hope, wait a minute I can't be loosing hope right now. Just looking back at all those times you supplied me with all the answers and the money when I needed it. Lord, I just ask for guidance, for control. Control, not so I can control my life, but mainly to control my anger, learn to control my money and such.
Lord, it always seems that when I wake up things never go very well between my mom and I. I really really really want that to change. I wish we could get along. I wish our family could get along. I see the other families at church and wished that our family was like that. I just ask that you would be the relationships we have down here. I pray that they will be able to grow together and that we would learn to control our anger towards each other and put that anger towards something else. Lord, thanks.
I love you. You are always there for me. There when I am in pain, lost all hope, and so forth. I wish my friends like Mintra, could understand the meaning of it all. i wish i had the guts or faith to go and talk to her about you. I wish I really had the guts to invite to church or some of the young adult activities. but i don't, I don't know why, but I don't.
Lord i pray for the people in haiti, and all the organizations sending aid to Haiti. I pray for safe travels and that everything will be able to make it over there. I pray that we as a global community will come together to help and possibly save these people. I honestly wish i could go down there right now and just go and take care of the children. I really pray that the christian organizations down there, like the Hands and Feet Project, will be able to show the people they are around and show them that there is hope, that there is safety when you trust in God. That he will protect them from any harm or further harm and sickness. i just pray for a hand of protection over the country of Haiti and the people going to help.
i pray for the speaker, the Ugandans coming to america, for the Legacy Tour. I pray that they will be able to get everything needed to come over smoothly. i pray that no one will get sick before they come over. I also pray for a hand of protection for them. I know it's going to be a fun semester for them and yet i know it will be a hard one trying to get screenings booked and people to get their contracts in. Lord, I pray for Invisible Children as an organiztion. They are an amazing organization for what they have done so far and what they will continue to do. Especially for those children in Uganda. It's so sad to me that no one is really mentioning it on the news and so forth. but it is amazing that the youth and college students are coming to together to show the world what is going on. This is when I wish people would send money and aid to help this atrocity, but until a natural disaster happens i don't money will be flowing in if it did happen. But that's why alot of littles can make a big difference. I pray that the roadies have gotten to head quarters safely. I pray that you would keep them healthy as they plan screenings and go through training. Send my loves and prayers towards them God.
Lord be with britannie today as she starts her second semester of college. Thanks abunch. send my loves to brit!
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER
your beloved daughter
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
God,
There is so much going on in my head right now. I am really wanting to go to Swaziland. I guess you can say that I am really scared and overwhelmed with the reality of how much this trip is going to cost and well, can I say honestly, I don't think I can afford to go. I know that you will provide if you want me to go. I am just scared that you don't want me to go. And I REALLY WANT TO GO.
That's what I am worried that my wants are overpowering what you want from me. Cause Starfield's song, "I Will Go", will always be my prayer to you, and least the one of many.
"To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, to the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within yours hands
I will go, I will go, send me
Let me not be blind with privelege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing you've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change
There is so much going on in my head right now. I am really wanting to go to Swaziland. I guess you can say that I am really scared and overwhelmed with the reality of how much this trip is going to cost and well, can I say honestly, I don't think I can afford to go. I know that you will provide if you want me to go. I am just scared that you don't want me to go. And I REALLY WANT TO GO.
That's what I am worried that my wants are overpowering what you want from me. Cause Starfield's song, "I Will Go", will always be my prayer to you, and least the one of many.
"To the desperate eyes and reaching hands
To the suffering and the lean
To the ones the world has cast aside
Where you want me I will be
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, to the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within yours hands
I will go, I will go, send me
Let me not be blind with privelege
Give me eyes to see the pain
Let the blessing you've poured out on me
Not be spent on me in vain
Let this life be used for change
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, to the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within yours hands
I will go, I will go, send me
I wanna live for you
Go where you lead me
I wanna follow you (3x)
I will go, I will go
I will go, Lord send me
To the world, to the lost
To the poor and hungry
Take everything I am
I'm clay within yours hands
I will go, I will go, send me
Send Me! (3x)"
Everything in this song is the cry of my heart. I want to be used by you of the best of your abilities. I want to go where you want me to go. I want to do what you want me to do. Be used in situations I didn't think I would benefit from.
Lord, I am praying to you for guidance. Lead me, I will follow. I am listening. Speak to me while I am asleep. Speak to me through my music. Speak to me through my friends and family. Speak to me through Klove or Air1. I am your servant and am listening. I am willing to listen.
I love you. Thanks for all that you have done and all that you will do.
Oh... would you please be with all the people affected by the earthquake in Haiti. I pray that you would continue to protect them from any harm. I pray for all the organizations out there in Haiti, I pray that they will be able to stay strong in you and be able to show others that even in this time of distress, there is still hope in you. I pray for Audio Adrenaline's organization, Hands and Feet Project. I pray that they will continue to show your love. I pray the countries around the world that we will come to aid of Haiti and help them recover. I pray for healing for anyone that is in pain right now. I pray for adopted children, whose birth families came from Haiti. I pray that you will keep them strong and let them know that their families are A-OK! Thanks.
I also pray for all the Ugandans coming to San Diego to go on the Legacy Tour. I pray that everything will go smoothly. I pray that everyone will stay safe and healthy. I pray that no one will get hurt or abducted before the trip. i pray for a hand of protection over each and everyone of these children and jolly. I pray that they will the visas necessary to come over smoothly. I pray for everyone that will come in contact with these amazing people over the next three or four months. I pray that you would soften the hearts of those who don't believe what's happening to be true or real, or even those that believe it's apart of their culture. I pray that we will control our words so we don't make Americans stupid or inconsiderate. I also pray for all the Roadies. i pray that they got to San Diego safely. That they will continue to remember why they are doing this, and not just for making friends and for travels. I pray that they will that in mind as they pursue each screening.
thanks again god.
PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE be with my family. Our relationships is, honestly, not very great. We all get so angry so fast. i pray that we will all learn to control our anger. i want to be a happy family but i feel like they don't care and just that life would be better for them if i were gone but i know that is not right. they lobe me, but honetly it just doesn't seem like it. please help us to control our angers.
YOU ARE THE LOVER OF MY SOUL.
LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER!
AMEN
your beloved daughter.
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